Today I'm grateful for... The feeling of inferiority I get when other survivors share. I know you can't compare and damage is damage. But I'm so ready to dismiss my…

Today I'm grateful for... A dream that involved Ludvig's family, who used to be mine as well until he died, and has me waking up grieving. Another casualty of the…

Today I'm grateful that... An acquaintance Demi is coming over tomorrow and I almost wish she wasn't. She normally comes with her husband (my friend from college) and I'm comfortable…

Today I'm grateful that... I had a pretty good day today. Most of the things I can think of to be grateful for are "positive", but maybe that's just me…

Today I'm grateful for... The compulsory sex I have with Cubu. I'm really vulnerable on that topic right now but I don't want to feel a gap between us. I…

Today I'm grateful for... I looked up codependency yesterday just to find out Cubu and I are both definitely codependent. At some point after this CSA stuff, we'll have to…

I'm grateful for... a dream I had where Cubu and I were going to sleep and when we woke up, we'd be engaged. But here I am, waking up, and…

Today I am grateful for... the helplessness and horror of a near-rape dream I had last night. I tried gouging his eyes out and slamming him with a wrench but…