Sunday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Avoidant. I don't even have things to add to this because I've spent literally the whole day playing Avatar, aside from half an hour…

Saturday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Grief over my past, over Ludvig, at how huge that revelation was. This might be a prominent emotion for a while. I'm leaning into…

Friday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Shy and embarrassed after sharing my two biggest shames with my recovery partner. I had stalled as long as I could but it was…

Thursday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Predictably, grief over Ludvig. A low thrum in my skull that changes how I see the world. I lit a candle for him in…

Wednesday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Grief over Ludvig and the sense of family I lost in the wake. I think I've been intentionally not looking at the calendar in…

Monday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Unsuccessful, stunted, judgmental of myself because I can't seem to cry. I realize I cry more than some people but I really feel like…

Sunday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Out of touch with reality and panicky at the grocery store today. When I was 11, my favorite aunt died and for reasons unknown,…

Saturday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Guilty, ashamed, like I'm a bad partner and a bad person because I think I might have a slight mutual crush on a member…

Friday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Unprepared and overwhelmed at the conversation I began with Cubu that ended up being a can of worms. I've been slowly scaling back the…