Thursday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Regret, sadness, and guilt that I've been letting my midday walks with Cubu fall far to the wayside. With my work and meeting schedule,…

Wednesday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Sad that I feel shame for fearing male arousal. Of course I do, it makes all the sense in the world that I'm frightened…

Tuesday: Today I’m grateful for feeling… Overwhelmed then pushed into grief. The internet cut out in the middle of my CODA meeting, which was devastating because I had been waiting…

Monday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Conflicted (and psyched) about softball because it was canceled for the season? We were meant to play our first two games today and got…

Sunday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Tired and weak. I think it's a combination of staying up way too late on Friday and the big grief of yesterday. Even walking feels…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... Frustrated that it feels like a full time job scaling back my emotional flashbacks. Like they just pop up and now that I can identify…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... Validated about Cameron but also grief. I shared the experience with my recovery partner who really validated that yes, even if it was something he…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... Anxious about seeing Cubu's grandfather and family today. It feels bad to say this but I just really don't enjoy spending time with them. Aside…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... Pretty triggered by the tail end of what was originally a really nice conversation. It's with my library friend Cameron, he's the older one who…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... Guilty again for calling in sick again because Cubu is still ill. But I'm trying not to let it ruin my day this time.  Wretched…