It all began on Reddit...

Here I would talk about Melodie Beattie, how I haven’t read the book, the Project Gratitude that I’ve been doing with a buddy from reddit, and what to expect from this website.

This blog was inspired first by the courage of my fellow survivors of incest. Each meeting they show up, share their most secret truths with strangers, then hold compassionate space as I share mine. In giving each other these gifts, they create a place where one is unafraid to face even their most horrifying challenges and find the strength to grow beyond them. 

One survivor in particular served as a second call to action when she shared a drive to transform her trauma experience into something of service for fellow survivors. I had been feeling the same, timidly sitting on my own fire, and was in awe to see hers burning brightly. 

Being a part of this fellowship led me to my final inspiration: the earnest and gorgeous humanness of my Project Gratitude partner. Without her, this blog would never have been conceived, and I certainly wouldn’t have had a notion to share it broadly.  Having met on Reddit with the intent to begin this practice, she bravely entrusted this stranger with her precious, innermost world. Every day we faithfully witness the full spectrum of each other’s emotions and greet them with gentle, loving support. Through this vulnerability, we grow our knowledge of what it means to be alive, and how much more vibrant life is when you fully feel it. Thank you C.

How to describe this blog… this blog is the love child of Melody Beattie’s Project Gratitude + the sharing spirit of Anonymous groups. You can find a full 


It was heavily inspired by the way sharing in Anon meetings works: sharing for the sake of feeling fully human without shame and being supported in that vulnerability. The goal is to normalize giving weight to all feelings and using them as constructive stepping stones towards mental peace. So it ends up being growth-focused daily entries about various feelings I have that someone could read and think “oh wow, there’s someone out there as neurotic as I am, and maybe everyone is a bit more neurotic than they let on but that doesn’t mean we can’t get better.” I’ll warn that it’s pretty intense and you may learn more about me than you maybe care to. I don’t hold back and y’all know I have been doing a lot of trauma work, so it’s not for everyone.


Our practice affected me so profoundly, I want everyone to be able to feel this regardless of whether they had Anon meetings or a gratitude partner.


However, perhaps this entire blog is here to feed my sense of grandiose, part of a larger effort to fend off my inferiority complex. I could be totally off about all of this and hindsight will be a huge cringe in 10 years. So, as we say in SIA: Take what you liked and leave the rest. I hope this finds you well either way. 


So here we are: a blog of daily gratitude where I embrace a fully felt life and hope to learn something from it. With any luck, it will be a display of neuroticism to grace, codependence to independence, and trauma to peace.

 

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