Today I'm grateful for feeling... out of it, like I'm kind of gliding through the day without truly interacting with it. In conversations, it feels like it takes 100% of…

Today I'm grateful for feeling...very disconnected and out of it. I've done a great job of distracting myself all day in an effort to discourage feeling so this entry will…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... A level of dread, terror, I don't know, that I haven't reached before. Cubu has always had this weird sleep disturbance that happens every now…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... Tired, confused, and unsatisfied after a late night disagreement with Cubu. It's an intimacy issue and I feel guilty that I'm not healed yet, that…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... pretty fucking tired. Got to bed on time but woke up multiple times CERTAIN I was going to puke. Like head in the bowl, doing…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... out of control in the work kitchen today. Someone left stale tri-flavored tray of donut holes from yesterday and you better believe I quickly and…

Today I'm grateful for feeling... exhausted and unfocused for the first half of the day. The depression has caught up with my sleeping habits and either prevents me from falling…

Today I'm grateful for... 150 fourth graders coming into the library and having to monitor them. I can't seem to handle children anymore, not that I was ever great at…

Today I'm feeling grateful for... Going fucking ham on these buttery pretzels at work. I shit you not, I must have eaten half the bag in furtive trips to the…