Monday-Tuesday: These days I was grateful for feeling...Proud, thrilled, and free beyond belief. I BOOKED THE COSTA RICA!!!!! The Spanish immersion, the flights, everything. I am at peak excitement, something…

Wednesday-Sunday: During this trip I was grateful for having felt... Elated after finishing half the draft of my vows to myself. My tattoo looks exactly how I wanted, my vows…

Tuesday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Guilty for disappointing Cubu and guilty for caring. He wanted sex today and I just didn't have it in me, it was a big…

Monday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Fucking awful as I consider the stress and fear I grew up under. I was barely there in my SIA meeting today, I even…

Sunday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Loose and excited by the couple's massage Cubu and I got. I liked experiencing that with him, especially since I had effectively prohibited massages…

Saturday: Today I'm grateful for feeling...Sad after a conversation with Cubu about my mental conceptions of sexual frequency. In my mind, I track exactly how many days it has been…

Friday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Revelatory possibly? I've been thinking about how violent and aggressive I feel towards my dad, how strongly I want vengeance in a physical way.…

Thursday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Desperate to invalidate my abuse. I keep searching for evidence that negates, I crave denial. I see this pattern in myself: I spend a…

Wednesday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Connected and useful after helping library volunteer Will screw supports into some shelves. We have a quiet understanding of each other that I really…

Tuesday: Today I'm grateful for feeling... Revelatory today as I noticed another reason that I expect men to be predators even when they've exhibited no signs of this. In general,…